Haunting?

Ok, I realize the title seems kind of...scary. No worries. I've been thinking recently about what I think about. I know that is confusing, and weird. Who thinks about what they think about? Well, it happens.

Anyways, I've found that these are some of the main things I think about:

quotes from books I'm reading that just stick with me, and how I need to start making a journal of all these great lines. This one has been in my mind recently from the book The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins "Where is the woman who has ever really torn from her heart the image that has been once fixed in it by a true love? Books tell us that such unearthly creatures have existed--but what does our own experience say in answer to books?"

Dance. Recently I've started dance classes, and I feel like I am accomplishing so much in them. I get a sort of rush when I get a figure just right. I think about the music and the steps a lot.

Music. Music is such a huge influence in my life. I will get the lyrics of one line in my head that I will think about and just apply in my life during that time. Songs really do control my emotions, and how I feel after I listen to them. I'm always thinking about songs I want to learn, and write. I don't think there are words to exactly say my feelings about music. When I practice piano or guitar, it is a huge release, and I even get so into playing songs that it affects my body. I will laugh, sweat, or even shake (really fast songs).

Accomplishing more. I think about how much more there is that I haven't done or experienced. This lead to me making a list of goals to start out with which I will post.

So those are the main things, and of course, much more runs through my mind. I find these subjects cross it the most though. I recommend everyone to try this sometime. It really put a perspective on what it is that defines who I am in a way. What you think carries on to what you do and to who you are, right? I remember someone said that they liked writing songs because they felt that it was something that was uniquely theirs and it really struck a chord with me. That was exactly how I felt about things like painting, and writing. Well, anyways, I decided while writing this not to post my whole list of goals, but here is a sampling:

Perform more for people (piano and guitar)

stretch every night

eat breakfast

realize the potential to have a good friend in everyone

resolve issues

start writing in a journal

lyrics in my head at the moment

"give me back my point of view cuz I just can't think for you"--look what you've done, by Jet

I bet Katie is super excited that I'm writing another post for the first time in...probably two months now? Yay me. I've been thinking about how I wanted to write a post about my shoes, because I love them. How often do I get to just go on about them??? One of my early birthday presents this month was a new pair of shoes from urban outfitters. I must say, I love that store immensely, though it can be kind of pricey. I've been slowly building up a wardrobe from there.

So back to the shoes. Last saturday, during a break from family history research, my friend Lana and I stopped by the gateway, where I picked up these beauties.

Yup, my new oxfords. I don't know that I will ever love a man as much as I love these. hmmmm...probably not a good thing. I also got a sweet pair of vintage looking earrings. Now if only I had earlobes.

Anywho, I absolutely love having shoes that I don't see anyone else with. I also feel like I'm from the sixties, and getting ready to go swing dancing with john travolta.

Clearly, I really love fashion, and I always pick out dresses or outfits I'm in love with in movies I see. P.S I Love You had great clothes in it. Hillary Swank wore some stunning outfits, including this cute little dress.

Also, this saturday, my roomies and I are going to be checking out the bridal fair. Oh ya, none of us are getting married. Who cares! This inspired me to look at the '09 collection of the wedding gown designer Rosa Clara, who I've recently fallen in love with. Alta Moda Bridal here in utah makes the dresses temple ready, and she is one of the designers they have in stock. As I was looking at the gowns, I fell in love with this gown. I'm going to have to start saving up now, as these dresses can run in the thousands.

I just love the silhouette. I'm not a fan of mermaid, or trumpet gowns. This is exactly the kind of look I love. At the same time though, I absolutely love lace collars, and will most likely go that way. Here's another Rosa Clara gown I adore!

This all probably makes me sound marriage hungry, but no, I am not. Like I tell my roomies, I want a wedding, not a marriage right now.

As a random afterthought, I've had this quote from mansfield park stuck in my head recently.

"beware of fainting spells, beware of swoons, run mad as often as you choose, but do not faint" poetic yes? That movie is full of great lines, many taken from Jane Austen's writings, and short stories. Which reminds me, I need a new book to read. Ideas?

Senioritis...again?

I've come to the realization in the past couple weeks of school, that I appear to have senioritis...all the time. I thought that would end with high school, but alas, it did not. It probably doesn't help that I purposely plan my schedule to make sure I have no classes before eleven in the morning, and no friday classes either. I seem to hardly ever have homework, and quite a bit of free time. Another problem is when I browse through different majors, if it has a senior thesis, that major is no good. Perhaps I'll find something I'm fully invested in as a career next semester.

Example of my sophmoritis (I feel that word is more appropriate): today I had an essay due in my class at 4:30. Instead of being responsible and writing it the night before, or earlier, I skipped my class at 3 in order to write the essay then. I blame the christmas season. It makes me want to just snuggle up, drink hot chocolate, and go look at christmas lights. 24/7.

Also, used my last fifteen dollars in my account last night to buy some meager supplies of food. Officially a college student! I never realized how hard it is to keep food in the fridge till now. I honestly have no idea where it goes (well, my stomach of course, but still).

Katie persauded me

I haven't blogged in quite a long time. In fact, I only blogged last winter to keep friends and family in the states updated on my travels. I've been reading my roomie katie's blog for some time now, and she has convinced me to start a new blog for fun. So here it is! I guess I'll start off with saying how grateful I was for this past thanksgiving break. I got to have real meals all week, AND do my laundry! Living here at the Riv has its hardships haha.

Anywho, one significant part of the break was my discovery of my new favorite movie. This is big, because my favorite movie has been big fish for. . . a couple years! I love movies that are different than the normal girl meets guy, they don't like each other, they do, then there's a falling out, they realize their love, and yay happy ending! blah. Thought I admit I do enjoy chick flicks where I know the exact outcome the whole time every once in awhile. Even most other movies are insanely predictable. Take action movies for example: the main guy usually beats the bad guy at an intense moment where you think he might not make it. I love movies where the storyline is something different and new, or keeps me guessing what will happen next. Movies that make me think basically. Different from your average storyline, that make me go, woa! Examples: shawshank redemption, the illusionist, big fish of course, oceans movies, across the universe, etc. I also love period movies, such as pride and prejudice, and BBC movies.

Wow, that was a little too much. Back to the point. So wednesday night I rented The Brothers Bloom with my cousin, and let me tell you, it is great! It's about two brothers who have been con men their whole lives, and have one last con. I did wish I had a clearplay when
I watched it because there were some things that were unnecessary, and quite a lot of language.
Here are some of my favorite quotes from it:

"The perfect con is one where everyone involved gets just what they wanted. "

" The trick to not feeling cheated is to learn how to cheat. "

"I don't know about "truths." A photograph is a secret about a secret. The more it tells, the less you know. "

Love it!


Enough about movies. In light of the past thanksgiving holiday I feel I should list some things I'm thankful for:
family
old and new friends
my strengthening testimony
scarves
roommates putting up with me being in my bathrobe a lot of the time
my bathrobe
rings from other countries
being able to travel
beautiful photography
michael buble music
skinny jeans that fit well even after wearing them multiple times
friends who use the open door policy
people who make me laugh till my face hurts
good influences
change
art
a good book and a fireplace
barnes and nobles classics
finding euros and pounds in a random purse pocket
getting to play my heart out on piano
classical music
the crazy feeling I get inside about different things. Like there's a balloon swelling up inside me that will pop if I don't get to experience something.
not really ever getting stressed
dresses my mom makes for me



Also, my mom brought this realization about when she handed me a book to read and I got bored with it. She said, you only like classic books with older english language that aren't simple to read. True mom, so true. I get bored if the language is just...meh. Bring on the old!


"risk it all cuz i'll catch you when you fall"
random owl city lyrics I just heard playing outside my room. crazy feeling inside right now!